Life
Been a while since i stopped in to drop a line and a thought. This morning when i woke up i had about a million, or thirty things on my to do list. Quickly, it was apparent that things weren't going to go exactly as i planned. Soon, i was cross, unsettled, okay; i was downright ornery! Top the frustration of not being good enough with the headache i had, and the pressure i felt from the ever growing never ending list of things to do and soon i blew it! tears flowed and couldn't be stopped. sheepishly i prayed on the way to our monday home school co-op meeting.
Oh yes, i prayed even in the midst of my melt down. See, our bible study had been on kind words wouldn't you know. and when Haley read the proverb for the day it was Proverbs 15 of course which begins with:
(Pro 15:1) A soft answer turneth away wrath: but grievous words stir up anger. (Pro 15:2) The tongue of the wise useth knowledge aright: but the mouth of fools poureth out foolishness. (Pro 15:3) The eyes of the LORD are in every place, beholding the evil and the good. (Pro 15:4) A wholesome tongue is a tree of life: but perverseness therein is a breach in the spirit.
Oh yes, i could feel the gentle chastisement of The Holy Spirit, but i didn't feel condemned. Instead i felt so honored that God Almighty, King of the Universe would care enough about me and my silliness to remind me through His Word and his child, my daughter Haley, that He loves me and i need to behave according to His Word in order to experience the life He created me to live. By the time we arrived at co-op i felt a bit better, but still my heart was heavy. As i walked in the sweet sound of voices raised in praise and worship greeted me. I had missed the discussion portion and entered smack in the middle of our praise time and it blessed me so.
Seeing my distress, some of the godly women in the group offered a shoulder and a hug.
I realized when i left that while the circumstances hadn't changed, and the pain in my head and body had actually grown worse, that i felt much better because i had things in a better perspective.
God has never failed me. He has never turned me away when i have come to Him with sincere confession and repentance. He has forgiven me and helped me find my way back to Him every time i have failed Him and taken my eyes off Him. God is so good. and i thank Him for my family, and my friends. I have the best of them, family and friends you know.
I pray you have a great day tomorrow, and the next day as well. And i hope that if you find yourself having less than a great day that you will remember my less than great day and stop right where you are, pray and find some praise and worship music and some godly friends. That will make things much more bearable, no matter what things they are. It may not change your circumstances, but these things change you, just a little bit each time.
God bless you all my friends.
Peace- a
