It has been a while since i posted. Since i'm not sure who, if anyone reads this i will give a brief overview without too many specifics to try and account for my time away from this writing task i've set for myself.
In the past few months we have completed our new kitchen, 20 feet by 20 feet of added space to our home. While i'm not able to help with as much of the heavy lifting and work as i once did due to health issues, i do help in every way that i can. I textured the walls, painted, stained, and laid the tile floor. The day is was ready we hosted about twenty or so family members for Thanksgiving. I was exhausted and when i over do it my body takes much longer to recover now. But, Christmas was on the way and it was hunting season so i did all of the Christmas shopping and much of the decorating and baking and such on my own. Additionally, there was a lot of travel this year for the holidays so factoring that in it was no surprise that i had another recovery period after Christmas.
Soon after Christmas, on the 18th of January, my dear mother in law died unexpectedly. There was a week of mourning as friends and family came in from many places including Iraq, as her youngest son is a commander in the Army National Guard. The week after that was filled with catching up on our school work as we home-school our two youngest children. Then last week continued that direction till Friday when we began preparing for my son's wedding on February 1st.
Now i am again in recovery mode. My body aches in every joint, including my jaw and the tiny joints in my fingers and toes. I don't say that to complain, just to explain i guess, that sometimes, an absence is more than just someone not being somewhere. For me, when i am absent from my "normal" activities, there is usually some healing of some sort going on. I hate that this has become my life, but i'm blessed to have a life at all so i cannot, will not complain about the life i have, although sometimes i do feel guilty that i'm not as able as i once was and feel i have to explain myself and defend my down time.
God knows though when i am taking a necessary rest and when i am being lazy. I guess some days that has to be enough because on days like today, i can't even decide for myself which i am. i feel that i should be over my "recovery period", but there is just no motivation, no desire to do anything and all i want to do is stay in bed and rest my weary bones. Ahhhh, what to do on a day like today? Pray i guess, and write it out till i get to the end of me and the beginning of something bigger than i am and better than i am.
Until next time dear readers, if there are indeed any of you left, I bid you peace. Pray the same for me, won't you?
